What do you want?

"What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction."

-chuck palahniuk

Everyone wants to be loved, sometimes we need that feeling more than others.
but right now,at this very second, what do YOU want?
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# Posted on Thursday, 15 May 2008 at 2:45 PM
Edited on Friday, 30 May 2008 at 2:53 PM

You want to know me?

(copied from myspace)

My name is alison,I'm 16
I know what I want,and I know how to get it.
I never had it easy,but no one ever does,right?
I am very self destructive,and alot of the time I don't take care of myself.
I'm not happy with myself.
I love immature and obscene humor,I love to laugh,basically if you can make me laugh out loud,I'll love you.
http://allsp.com/l.php?id=e1
I can definately outdrink you ;)
yeahh I drink.Alot. And I smoke, but not alot.
I'm extremely accepting.Not much bothers me. I understand both points of view.
I ask foreigners too many questions...I want to know what it's like outside of Quebec.
I grew up at an early age..but some people don't understand that.
I'm rich in Mexico : ) si bueno. no estoy barracho!
I say amazing too much.everything is/was/could be/will be/looks/sounds/feels "AMAZING"..but if I say you're amazing,it's probably the best compliment you'll ever get,cause i always mean it.
I love watching rugby..I don't go for any teams, I just like watching people be aggressive :O awww yeah
I say "STRAIGHT OUTTA COMPTON" alot.yeah it gets annoying.<br>I want someone who loves me so i can love them back.I'm tired of being alone. for the first time in my life.I want to let someone in.
I'm obsessed with dirtyy convicts.I'd love to be a criminal psychologist.do you know how amazing it would be to sit down with a serial killer and be like "whats up?"
It would be..amazing.(OH WHAT! YOU SEE.)I can't even explain how(-_-)amazing it would be.
I actually don't like Iron Maiden.
I say really weird things
it runs in the family.
you shouldn't underestimate me,but you will. You'll be surprised at what I can do.
my family and I are incredibly tight,I love them and would do anything for them. My mother and my little brother,and my big brother (RiP).
"Pain and Heartbreak are good old friends of ours, I think it's time we got to know some new people."
So when I'm in your neighborhood, you better duck
Coz Ali, is crazy as fuck
As I leave, believe I'm stompin
but when I come back, boy, I'm comin straight outta Compton
ahahahah
anyway
You shouldn't judge me by what you see,but you will
I can be insightful,and no one can take that away from me..if you think I didn't have you figured out from the moment I met you,you're wrong,
I'm also the most stubborn person you'll ever meet.
it also runs in the family.
other than that I just like to party and be creative.
and I suck at highschool.
stick around,you might learn something,
PEACEE

this is the not so deep me, maybe one day I'll show you how I really am on the inside.
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# Posted on Monday, 05 May 2008 at 5:45 PM

i don't want to do this alone

it's so beautiful outside, for the first time in months the sun is shining and when you step outside you're greeted with that semi-chilly wind,but soon comforted by a huge warming ray of light.
It makes you want to close your eyes and breath in the whole world.

It's so bright out there, but it's so dark in here.
It seems like I've lost that ability to feel.
It's like I've isolated myself, not only from the outside world, but from my own emotions.
I don't know how to ask for help, selfishly I wish someone would pick up on it and come and save me.

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# Posted on Monday, 21 April 2008 at 7:31 PM
Edited on Monday, 05 May 2008 at 5:35 PM

Hei :)

Hei,
minun nimeni on Alison,
olen 16 vuotias,asun montreal,Quebec.
minun lempiasiani on musiikki ja alkoholi.

nakemiin :)
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# Posted on Tuesday, 15 April 2008 at 4:21 PM

Nickooo

I miss him so much, sometimes I can't deal with it

it's like you sit back and think about how it's never going to be okay,ever again. No one will ever be as happy as they were when he was still with us,ever again.




everything's so empty, but at the same time, there's no room to breathe

and right now i don't know how to deal with that

i don't know what i'm looking for anymore
i don't know where all those days between November 4th,2006 and April 7th 2008 went,

nothing makes sense

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# Posted on Monday, 07 April 2008 at 10:39 PM